One thing I know is, I would never be in any relationship anymore. I dont want to feel this feeling again. It kills me!
All I could say is, Thank you so much for everything. Being a friend is, turning it into something else is the worst as it is not easy to forget the memories once we have anything at all later.
Im not the one who asked for this. And I always know my level. That is why I would never asked more. I know I dont deserve it.